Resolve

For some reason this word has been popping up for the past 2 or 3 days continuously in my mind. Because I love the "define:" feature on google search I decided to just look it up, to see if maybe it even really fits my mood. This is what comes up that seems to fit

• decide: bring to an end; settle conclusively;
  
• conclude: reach a conclusion after a discussion or deliberation
• purpose: reach a decision;
• answer: understand the meaning of;
• find the solution;
• Determination, will power; To find a solution to (a problem); To solve again; To make a firm decision to do something

So yeah it is fitting.
I feel sure now about where my life is heading. I feel confident that no matter what happens, I know myself well enough to continue to make positive choices in my life.

That is a big fucking deal yo. Im 23 years old. And I cant think of one thing in my life that I want to change. I mean there are a few things here and there that I want to happen, but I know all of those things will happen in their own time.

I feel oddly powerful, like I can overcome any obstacle, tackle any problem, and come out each time on top and feeling amazing. Nothing seems like a big deal anymore. Everything seems so small compared to the wonderful feelings i have on a daily basis.

All the hate, confusion, fear and sadness that filled me before has dissolved and i feel foolish for ever putting any weight on that shit in the first place. All the shit that happened and all of the shit that has happened since, its all gone. Its like I have really let go of all my past pain.

So I am starting

I remember when I had a livejournal, oh so long ago. I really did get addicted to it but deleted it because i had too much on there that i didnt want to relive again. Now I feel like I dont really have anything to say anymore but maybe that is not the case. We will see.